Originally written and posted on August 15, 2007

Hello!

Happy Wednesday to you! I pray that you have been well and blessed in many ways.

It has been almost a month since I last posted a blog. I wish I could say that during my time “away” that I was very productive, but I can’t. Some things I was supposed to do, I did not do. In reality, I should have accomplished more than I did. I could have, but I chose not to. The truth is I had so much stuff clouding my mind that I just did not want to do much of the things I should have been doing. Instead, I did things that were not very beneficial to anyone, not even myself.

While I was not idle, the things I did should have been closer to the bottom of my list of priorities. Also, some of my actions and thoughts were not pleasing to God. I realize that. I know that it’s time for God to reprogram me – to reprogram my life so that I may be a better vessel. I cannot be a true vessel of the Lord’s because, to be totally honest, my life isn’t lined up as straight as it should be. It took one phone call and a text message to come to the realization that my feet were not planted as firmly as they should have been in my walk as a Christian.

I am not perfect. I have never claimed to be. Anyone who has been reading my blogs knows that my life isn’t a picture painted all pretty and decorated with flowers. As I am being prepared for the works ahead of me, some truths have been a little hard for me to swallow. When the things that really need to be worked on in my life were brought to my attention, I couldn’t deny the truth of what I was seeing. It was even harder to take because someone else was seeing the areas of my brokenness up close and personal. I felt like hiding and very ashamed. Ultimately, in the end, I felt sorry because I had let God down. Still, He continues to cover me.

I have posted many blogs and my life seems to be an open book for the world to read. The pages of my life in digital format – to be processed by people as they choose. People will draw their own conclusions about me after reading about the events in my life and that is okay. Everyone is entitled to do so, however the events in my life nor the people who read about them can change the anointing on my life. I am STILL who God says I am.

My life is an open book. However, I only have a select number of people I allow to be connected with me on a personal level. As I am getting ready for greatness, some of the relationships/friendships that are not proving to be fruitful will come to an end. There will be no time for long and sad good-byes. Now, I will definitely be more mindful of the company I keep. Yes, I know…A very wise thing to do, right?

Well, as I continue to get my life lined up so that I can be where God wants me to be, I ask for your prayers. This ministry thing is real. My life will bare the fruit of great works. My Father said so.

Until next time…

In Him,

Ayana E.
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