Original Post Date – September 4, 2007

Hello!

I pray that you are enjoying your day so far.

This morning, I just feel like writing and sharing my heart. I have so much to say so if this particular post seems all over the place, please just try to follow the flow. **smile**

I have been thinking about this ministry thing and come to the realization that I can’t run from it. Don’t get me wrong, I love telling people about the things God has shown and taught me. My life lessons…my testimonies…are used to bless others. I read the notes and they are my proof (through real people) that my transparency is helping others get through some things.

Being transparent is easy for me because I have pretty much always been an open person. Some people have written me and said I’ve said way too much in my blogs. I’ve written about a couple of things that had even my mom shaking her head, but I refuse to be quiet. There is way too much that needs to be said. While people are trying to keep things “hush, hush”, there are people with lost souls in need of deliverance. There are people who don’t know Christ but desire to have a relationship with Him. However, some of them think that God won’t accept them as they are because of all the junk they have in their lives. That’s where God uses me as one of His vessels.

I’m here to let others have a look at my life. The good..the bad…I put my life in clear view where people can see that God CAN and He WILL accept you as you are regardless of what your past and present look like. If He saw fit to use a person such as myself to help bring people to Him, surely He can use others with similar pasts. Read my past blogs and you’ll see.

I never could have imagined I would be doing what I am doing now when I was out in the club or shacking up with an old lover. God is good!! It’s funny because I don’t even think my mom could have seen this coming…Not in a million years. But I’m here.

I’m here…and so is GOD!

It makes me feel good to know that someone’s life can be turned around by reading something I wrote. That’s powerful, but it’s all God! I don’t write what I write so that I can get glorified. It’s all for Him! I want people to see God in me. I want people to see how He operates through me…A simple, country girl from Louisiana…and know that without Him, I wouldn’t have made it this far.

If it was not for HIM, I would have been gone a long time ago. My faith in Him and knowing that things HAD to get better pulled me through so many bad times. Up until my early 20s, I was depressed a lot. I thought about suicide more times than I care to admit…but God! I love Him. I’m honored that He is using me in such a way. I want to cover myself completely in Him…so that people can see Less of Me and More of Him.

Yes…

Less of Me.

More of Him.

God gets all Glory in my life. While my actions have pulled me through things, it was only because of Him that I was able to do so.

Praise God.

Is he getting the Glory in your life?

Get into position so that when people are connected to your life, they will see More of Him.

Seek Him and I pray that God continues to cover you.

I love you.

Ayana E.

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Matthew 5:16
Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.